I am in a cafe watching the ocean, on my final weekend at Hridaya Yoga. I will be back in Denver on Thursday.
I will begin by saying I have been in great intellectual activation (even hypomanic ideation) my whole time here. It started in Guatemala with all my successes in AR leadership, but which also left me somatically destabilized. Then a week of crazy travel which included more integration. Which doesn’t help the meditation, of course. Not long after I arrived I gave up the hope of ever “meditating” (at least here) and decided I would just try and acquire more self-compassion. That worked, and I started calming. Hypomanic ideation continued, on many topics. It would be fair to say that in the last few weeks I have solved all the problems of my life, at least the ones that can be solved by thinking. I know exactly where I am going and what needs to happen next.